My back pages..

    Currently listening: The Byrds - My Back Pages   

It's true, I'm back from reading some of my old posts, some stuff I have on a notebook as old as I can remember, and a whole lot of audio tracks from the past stored in a CD.

Boy, I really changed a lot from the time I started writing this blog, up to this moment. Gone through not a million, not a thousand, but a mere bunch of experiences.

I also attended a crash course on how to gain and lose a good friend and have the rest of your life to feel guilty about it.

And if that wasn't exactly enough, there was this occasion where I saw the person I came to get attached sentimentally the most, board a plane bound to my very hometown, and dissapear from my life, or almost.

Does this mean I have bad luck?. Been thought so as of late.

Let's leave it as a "no contest" for now.

How do I feel today? probably as in a crossroad. I don't want to settle, but I have to. I don't want to buy a house in this town, but It seems I have, too.

Can't avoid the empty feeling of being alone, by myself, when everybody else is celebrating life.

What should I do?

Love me when I'm gone

    Currently listening: Three Doors Down - When I'm Gone    

It has been decided.

Today, I closed my Facebook account. Here's the reason:

After a time of inactivity (besides the actual inactivity here), I returned several times to FB to find there's LOTS of comments from the persons who I contacted (being them Cheryl, and Shyori among others). Most comments were inane, and not really relevant to my interests.

What to do? I was saying. Even my posts were so low quality, other people would not believe a word I say.

Besides, I've been in yet another segment of depression, and in times like that, I like to scrap my online stuff, withdraw from the world and die in a hole. I've done it here, and it costed me Fionn's friendship dear. Let's say almost the proverbial arm and a leg.

So from now on, it's gonna be here, baby. As usual. Why, you may ask? Because Xanga is for people who actually can type more than a sentence without going OMFG datz so radkl, U stnk, me FlieZ!!!!1, ending in a classic ROTFL trance induced by more LOLZ than anything else (or bad homeland-grown marijuana, if you may).

So, expect me to have a couple of anime reviews I'm preparing, since Off line does not mean off with anime.

Sore ja,

Joey

Reiterate

     Currently listening: Jean Michel Jarre - Oxygêne    

I've been thinking on what to do with the little time to spare now that I have been in an increase of responsibilities in my job, and a contrasting change in day schedule. At the same time, I've been coming up with bits and pieces and feel they would have some cohesivity so I can assemble a song or two, if I set myself to do so. To add up to the sum, I'm going through a certain internal (or affectional, if you may) turmoil, I feel like expressing some stuff bottled inside. It's like I feel there's certain number of events piling up on another to conform a sizeable column of feelings. That should be left into the open, I reckon, for my own peace of mind.

I suppose being left on my own by my two friends (one going for a life in a household as a head mother, and the other for studies at a distant city, where anything can happen, including finding someone to near - but not disposable yet - plans of getting married) makes me one lonely cat. One that needs someone to trust.

So, I think reiterating my friendship with them is quite an impossible feat, since it appears everyone took their own path, except me.

Lonely, but not at the top. What a mess.

Joey.

Be for you, Be for Me

     Curently listening: This!    

It's been such a long time I left this project in the can, I was looking forward a time to sit down, relax and put on the cans (headphones) so I could mix it to my heart's content. Why did I have to sit down and give a time slot? Because! it had major cohesivity problems between the two voices. One was done with my trusty Electrovoice PL80 (used by nyo) and I used an Audio Technica ATR-25, condenser microphone. Results? the two voices sound quite different in the raw, so I had to carefully tweak the eq's so they could sound similar in terms of sheen, air and bass density. Other than that, the compression ratios were a bit of a chore, since I tend to yell at the mike, while Nyo tends to use close proximity a lot.

I guess It came alright, so... for those who like Love Hina Again, Here's our personal version of ...

If you, dear casual reader, feel like commenting, please do note we were just "singing" in a Karaoke-like mode, with record enabled. She sang first - her whole parts - then I recorded mine. It had not to be perfect, it was fun, so it could not be perfect. Any note misses are because of the spontaneity it was sprawling across the room. No ego trips whatsoever.

Friends 4 EVA!      

Lyrics (source: www.animelyrics.com)

Be For You, Be For Me

Joey:
カラカラ渇いてる胸の中
ふと立ち止まり　気が付いたから
Nyo
誰もが急いでる街の中
少しゆっくり歩いてみた
Joey
声にださない願い　あなたとなら叶えたいよ
Nyo
時々泣きたくなると 眼を閉じてこう思うの try

Both
だけどあなたがいる 愛を求めている
どんな時も心はあるよ そばに
だからわたしがいる 愛を探している
ふたりなら 優しい涙に変わる
夢はきっと叶う

Nyo:
どこにいたって何をしてたって
あなたの事 考えている
Joey:
今日のこの青い空切り取って
ふたりの記念日の色にしよう
Nyo:
声にならない祈り このままいつまでもいたいと
Joey:
ふかく愛するほどに ひとは強くなる 切なくなる why

Both:
ここにあなたがいる 愛を求めている
永久に続くふたりだけの奇跡
そしてわたしがいる 愛を探している
終わらない未来を 一緒にふたり
これから歩き出す

ずっとあなたがいる 愛を求めている
わたしだけの誰かは あなたなんだ
そこにわたしがいる 愛を探している
ありふれた一瞬が燐くのは
ふたりだからこそ

きれいな感情

     Currently listening: This!    

きれいな感情

そっと触れられて
この頬の冷たさにやっと気づいた
朝目が覚めて
鳥の声にはじめて気づくように　突然

まだ知らない何も
心が求めてるもの
知らないの

空ばかり見ていた
いつから　こうして
あの雲の真下へ思いを飛ばして

夢のつづきを生きるみたい
頼りない私でも　愛して

胸の泉にある涙はどんな色なの
悲しみはーーー

朝の光が今　孤独をつつんだ
あなたが目を開けてほほえむ瞬間

空ばかり見ていた
窓から遠くへ
あの雲の真下へ連れていって

両手には　あふれ出す
きれいな感情
あなたに捧げたい

そっと触れていて
そっとこの頬に
そっと　そっと

歌　：新居昭乃
作詞／作曲：新居昭乃