While Craig is out...

    Currently listening: Three Doors Down - While I'm Gone   

I just went to visit Craigs List (www.craigslist.com) out of curiosity. I browsed a whole lot of categories, being the lst ones the personal ads.

I never imagined thee's such an astonishing amount of people with the most varied approaches to finding "the one". No wonder they call it "Crap's list".

After leaving the site, I started questioning my own motives to find a person who can fill the void left for so many years by my son's mother. I questioned my own need to be reciprocated. I questioned my abilities to keep that person close.

I almost fall into yet another depression fit. Thanks to You-Go-And-See-Who-It-May-Be I didn't. I expect more from myself, to be honest.

I mean, I know I'm not much of marriage, romance or what-you-may-wannna-call-it. It's just not really appealing to see there's such an incredible amount of women demanding stuff from guys. I know it's not good if the girl gets the bums and the weirdos knocking at her door all the time. But being tolerant is something I did not see much on the personal ads at Craig's.

Disapointed me? Nah, it's just not my scene. Not it is the bar thingie.

I guess I just need to concentrate on whatever the projects I have, and move along. Life's too short to step to the side of the road and wonder what are you gonna do with your life.

I guess, I digress.

Back to topic, I think Craig's ads are awful, the worst place to meet people. And I read a whole lot of people saying "yo, I was wasting my time in the (either "bar scene" or "computer chatrooms"), so I decided I'd come to Craig's and look for some real men.

You go, girls.Y'all are pretty clever. And demanding. I wouldn't call y'all clever. Just demanding.

And with that, I guess I have to go and check what I'm going to do with my errands.

See y'all.

Joey.

My back pages..

    Currently listening: The Byrds - My Back Pages   

It's true, I'm back from reading some of my old posts, some stuff I have on a notebook as old as I can remember, and a whole lot of audio tracks from the past stored in a CD.

Boy, I really changed a lot from the time I started writing this blog, up to this moment. Gone through not a million, not a thousand, but a mere bunch of experiences.

I also attended a crash course on how to gain and lose a good friend and have the rest of your life to feel guilty about it.

And if that wasn't exactly enough, there was this occasion where I saw the person I came to get attached sentimentally the most, board a plane bound to my very hometown, and dissapear from my life, or almost.

Does this mean I have bad luck?. Been thought so as of late.

Let's leave it as a "no contest" for now.

How do I feel today? probably as in a crossroad. I don't want to settle, but I have to. I don't want to buy a house in this town, but It seems I have, too.

Can't avoid the empty feeling of being alone, by myself, when everybody else is celebrating life.

What should I do?

Love me when I'm gone

    Currently listening: Three Doors Down - When I'm Gone    

It has been decided.

Today, I closed my Facebook account. Here's the reason:

After a time of inactivity (besides the actual inactivity here), I returned several times to FB to find there's LOTS of comments from the persons who I contacted (being them Cheryl, and Shyori among others). Most comments were inane, and not really relevant to my interests.

What to do? I was saying. Even my posts were so low quality, other people would not believe a word I say.

Besides, I've been in yet another segment of depression, and in times like that, I like to scrap my online stuff, withdraw from the world and die in a hole. I've done it here, and it costed me Fionn's friendship dear. Let's say almost the proverbial arm and a leg.

So from now on, it's gonna be here, baby. As usual. Why, you may ask? Because Xanga is for people who actually can type more than a sentence without going OMFG datz so radkl, U stnk, me FlieZ!!!!1, ending in a classic ROTFL trance induced by more LOLZ than anything else (or bad homeland-grown marijuana, if you may).

So, expect me to have a couple of anime reviews I'm preparing, since Off line does not mean off with anime.

Sore ja,

Joey

Reiterate

     Currently listening: Jean Michel Jarre - Oxygêne    

I've been thinking on what to do with the little time to spare now that I have been in an increase of responsibilities in my job, and a contrasting change in day schedule. At the same time, I've been coming up with bits and pieces and feel they would have some cohesivity so I can assemble a song or two, if I set myself to do so. To add up to the sum, I'm going through a certain internal (or affectional, if you may) turmoil, I feel like expressing some stuff bottled inside. It's like I feel there's certain number of events piling up on another to conform a sizeable column of feelings. That should be left into the open, I reckon, for my own peace of mind.

I suppose being left on my own by my two friends (one going for a life in a household as a head mother, and the other for studies at a distant city, where anything can happen, including finding someone to near - but not disposable yet - plans of getting married) makes me one lonely cat. One that needs someone to trust.

So, I think reiterating my friendship with them is quite an impossible feat, since it appears everyone took their own path, except me.

Lonely, but not at the top. What a mess.

Joey.

Be for you, Be for Me

     Curently listening: This!    

It's been such a long time I left this project in the can, I was looking forward a time to sit down, relax and put on the cans (headphones) so I could mix it to my heart's content. Why did I have to sit down and give a time slot? Because! it had major cohesivity problems between the two voices. One was done with my trusty Electrovoice PL80 (used by nyo) and I used an Audio Technica ATR-25, condenser microphone. Results? the two voices sound quite different in the raw, so I had to carefully tweak the eq's so they could sound similar in terms of sheen, air and bass density. Other than that, the compression ratios were a bit of a chore, since I tend to yell at the mike, while Nyo tends to use close proximity a lot.

I guess It came alright, so... for those who like Love Hina Again, Here's our personal version of ...

If you, dear casual reader, feel like commenting, please do note we were just "singing" in a Karaoke-like mode, with record enabled. She sang first - her whole parts - then I recorded mine. It had not to be perfect, it was fun, so it could not be perfect. Any note misses are because of the spontaneity it was sprawling across the room. No ego trips whatsoever.

Friends 4 EVA!      

Lyrics (source: www.animelyrics.com)

Be For You, Be For Me

Joey:
カラカラ渇いてる胸の中
ふと立ち止まり　気が付いたから
Nyo
誰もが急いでる街の中
少しゆっくり歩いてみた
Joey
声にださない願い　あなたとなら叶えたいよ
Nyo
時々泣きたくなると 眼を閉じてこう思うの try

Both
だけどあなたがいる 愛を求めている
どんな時も心はあるよ そばに
だからわたしがいる 愛を探している
ふたりなら 優しい涙に変わる
夢はきっと叶う

Nyo:
どこにいたって何をしてたって
あなたの事 考えている
Joey:
今日のこの青い空切り取って
ふたりの記念日の色にしよう
Nyo:
声にならない祈り このままいつまでもいたいと
Joey:
ふかく愛するほどに ひとは強くなる 切なくなる why

Both:
ここにあなたがいる 愛を求めている
永久に続くふたりだけの奇跡
そしてわたしがいる 愛を探している
終わらない未来を 一緒にふたり
これから歩き出す

ずっとあなたがいる 愛を求めている
わたしだけの誰かは あなたなんだ
そこにわたしがいる 愛を探している
ありふれた一瞬が燐くのは
ふたりだからこそ